What's This?

.... What do we have here? A new post that isn't following a half decade absence?!?!

No Kitty... This is Sparta.

I wanted to apologize for unintentionally being so vague in my previous post about what's been going on for me medically. I didn't mean to leave you hanging! I think I was partly unintentionally doing the whole If I don't say anything then it's not real. I can't hear you tra la la!! thing. However, also I'm trying not to jump the gun and start freaking out until I know there's something actually there that is worth freaking out over. I'm more than anxious enough as it is thankyouverymuch, so there's no need for me to be panicking over things that aren't even officially confirmed. The docs are scrambling (or at least scrambling in doctor time) to figure out what's going on, so I'll keep you posted as more information comes trickling in. But let's just say that I would be totally down with Dr. House miraculously appearing to figure all this craziness out.

I swear we'd be best friends. 

And yes, I'm going to keep pretending that House isn't a fictional character.

Major weird deja vu going on though. My days have gone back to consisting of waiting rooms, blood draws and personally knowing all the nurses/staff. It's just like before when I was really sick with my ED and in the hospital or doctor's office all the time. I developed bonds with the staff and then didn't want to recover because getting better meant not being in a relationship with any of those people any more. But anywho, what feels off kilter about the situation is that it has nothing to do with my eating disorder. It's bizarre to simultaneously be doing something which is simultaneously incredibly familiar and yet so new. I KNOW eating disorders. I can chatter away with a doctor about the medical or psychological aspects of them from dawn to dusk. But this situation is so unfamiliar, it makes me feel incredibly helpless and scared.

But enough of that foolishness. I hope you guys all had fabulous weekends. On Saturday my grandmother came over, which is always exciting. She's quite a spitfire, and so up to date on popular culture it makes me feel like the old lady. Not even kidding. Like I remember receiving a letter from her while I was inpatient. The whole thing was illegible, complete and utter chicken scratch. Except for one sentence written clear as day in huge letters: HUGH GRANT IS SO SEXY. Yup, that's my grandma! 

Anyways, she wanted to watch the second Twilight movie. I don't know why I'm so opposed to the series. Probably because it's such a phenomenon and so popular with all the fanatic fans, the hype immediately makes me want to dislike it.

My ambition was to negate. The world, whether dense or hollow, provoked only my negations. When I was supposed to be awake, I was asleep; when I was supposed to speak, I was silent; when a pleasure offered itself to me, I avoided it. My hunger, my thirst, my loneliness and boredom and fear were all weapons aimed at my enemy, the world. They didn't matter a whit to the world, of course, and they tormented me, but I got a gruesome satisfaction from my sufferings. They proved my existence. All my integrity seemed to lie in saying No.

- Susanna Kaysen

Sometimes I feel like that. But less so now than I used to, at least when it comes to non-Twilight-related things. Wow, this post is all over the place! 

But anyways, she wanted to see the movie. While watching Bella struggle with the choice every teenage girl encounters of having to choose between practicing bestiality or necrophilia I had a weird random thought. Suprise suprise, right? But anyways, it was that they never explain what will happen to the vampires and fellow immortal beings when the world will end. Like billions of years from now/in 2012 when an asteroid hits the Earth or whatever, what will become of Edward and all his homies? Will they just be floating around in outer space? And would all the vampires starve to death because there would be no humans or animals to get blood from? That would suck. Haha. Suck like vampires suck blood get it? ....I'm so lame.

So here's a video of my sister playing this game, the music from which has been stuck in my head and is driving me insane. What's the deal with video game music being so annoying? I swear I'm still recovering from the Yoshi Story background music. But anyways, she's so funny while playing and gets totally into it, yelping stuff along the lines of It's so beautiful! Oh my God, I'm going so fast! and There are flying dolphins! Then shrieking like a banshee when she dies. It totally cracks me up, so I had to capture the fun on film for your (and my) viewing pleasure.

P.S. Giveaway alert!