Glitter and Cell Phones.

I'm glad the Yeah Yeah Yeahs agree with me that there's something fabulous but violent about glitter. Maybe it's a few too many memories of doing art projects in grade school, how the glitter would get stuck to my hands. I could never rub them off and trying only resulted in the sparkly equivalent of a rug burn. Like twinkly road rash for the kindergarden crew. Regardless, it's a good song!

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Last night I got a message from an old IP friend asking for my mailing address because she wanted to send me something. It made me so incredibly happy. I always feel like I care more about other people than they do about me and have the belief in my head that I'm forgettable, nothing special. That's it's impossible for a person to think about me when I'm not there, and once I leave the room I'm gone from that person's heart and mind as well. And the only way to matter or have people care about me is to be sick. 

For instance, take your cellphone. You're cool with it, use it to make calls and whatnot. But the second your phone is missing, it's the love of your life and you'd do anything to find it. You are consumed with thoughts to locate the phone and will tear your room, purse, etc. apart to do so if necessary. Then when you finally find the phone you once again take it for granted, toss it carelessly into your purse with a thunk. I sometimes feel like the phone, and that the only way to have people love or feel strongly about me is to remain constantly on the verge of being lost. But nothing makes me happier than being proven wrong and seeing that sometimes people do think of me even if I'm not there, whether it's one of your amazingly supportive comments or my friend's message. If any of you guys struggle with this feeling, know that I think of you all even if I'm not reading your posts... But not in a creepy way! Just because I care and wonder how you're doing.

You are beautiful. Don't forget!

I realized that I'm constantly asking you guys questions in my posts. I swear I'm not nosy, just curious! I know everyone is jumping on the formspring bandwagon, but a.) I'm way to lazy to set up an account, and b.) I don't think I know enough people to warrant one... So for once instead of me pummeling you with questions on here, you can ask some! If you want to submit anonymously that's cool, I'll answer any inquiries on a Q&A post. Whatever you want to know, whether it's my favorite crayon color, biggest pet peeve, favorite outfit, whatever floats your boat.

Ready..... Aim..... Fire away!