I often feel like I'm on a mood roller coaster. My emotions swing drastically from depressed and hopeless to buoyant, sometimes over the course of a few minutes. Occasionally when I'm in a cranky irritable headspace I'll try to remember it's only temporary and will pass, that for all I know I'll be feeling supercharged in half an hour. However sometimes I just want to wallow in my pissed off-ness and the little optimistic voice annoys me even more. Unfortunately for you readers I think the fact that each blog entry is a random snippet of time from my day accentuates these drastic mood swings and makes me look a bit loony. ;) Do you guys experience this? Not the me seeming bonkers part, the total whirlwind of your emotions.
Maybe it's a gemini thing.
Speaking of astrology, today's horoscope: "A new opportunity at work means less time at home. You have a difficult decision to make. Talk to your partner about it." Wow... Apparently today I'm going to meet a guy, start a relationship with him, get a job, discover a new opportunity at said job AND talk to my boyfriend about it. Plus an appointment with my nutritionist and watching NCIS tonight? Looks like this girl is in for a busy twenty four hours! It's funny how I can see a horoscope in the morning that's totally off the mark or come home after a crap afternoon and read that it said "You will have the best day ever!!," yet if I see one predicting anything negative and theoretically possible I'll spend the day convinced that it's going to happen. Silly Rachael.
This is totally random but whatever: I'm in the mood to get another piercing. It's more that I want the feeling I get afterwards. It's hard to explain. You know when you are in a crowd and have something really good in your head? I imagine it's how people feel when they're walking around knowing that they're wearing really nice underwear. Or when only they know they're not wearing any underwear at all. Awkward. Moving on. No one knows, but it makes you feel good. That's how I feel when I get something pierced, at least for a little while. The only problem is there's nothing in particular that I want pierced. Plus my mom would probably give me the dreaded "glare of death." But at least I'd die a little bit sparklier.
You are a good writer Rachel. And I totally relate to the swing of emotions. Actually I find that a blog post of mine can be SO different if i post it nighttime or daytime...at nighttime I am sadder, down...in daytime, i am also that way, but can force less emotion into a post...
ReplyDeletehave a good night...hope u get to watch NCIS...i hear the other one with LL cool J is good also
Riding the Emotional Rollercoaster is something I've become quite the expert at. Not something I'm really very proud of, though.
ReplyDeleteNever knowing what to expect, from yourself, is a really strange and unwelcomed feeling.
I understand completely about the piercings! I love getting things pierced (to be honest, I've only got holes in my ears), but even though no one can see it, it's there, and YOU know it's there, and that's what matters.
Don't tell your Mum ;) If you feel like that's something you want to do, DO IT. Your body, you're allowed! Give ED a kick in the guts by doing something you want to do - even though it's not about food, it's showing yourself that you can do what you want without being influenced by ED.
Love,
Eleanor. xo
The same thing happens to me all the time re: mood swings. Drives me insane.
ReplyDeleteI don't believe in horoscopes -- it doesn't make sense that EVERY person born in a given time period will have the same type of day! Anyway, I'm not a Gemini. :p
Feel you on the piercing. Same situation here. But you may already know that. ;)
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Oh don't worry about it, I think most bloggers have that problem - sometimes my posts go from gung ho to hopeless and back again every day for a fortnight :P I'm not THAT unstable, it's just that I feel particularly moved to post when I have something to post about!
ReplyDeleteI'm not into horoscopes either, being an astronomer rather than astrologer, but they are amusing :)
so every morning i look at my horoscope on cosmo.com, today it told me to invite my girlfriends over for pizza. however ridiculous they may be i can't stop reading them, must be habit well & entertainment.
ReplyDeletei am one big mood swing. i totally know what you mean...
& the piercing thing i totally know what you mean about that feeling! not going to lie i've always liked getting pierced. i say you do it!!
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Mood swings? Why yes, those are a daily part of my life. In fact, my blog ALSO lets it show. So I can most definitely relate. In general, I think they're mainly a result of unhappiness whether one is entirely aware of it or not.
ReplyDeleteAnd hey, fellow Gemini right here! I love horoscopes even though I know that they're bull. Still fun to read and pretend though..
I absolutely know that feeling of confidence or whatever when you're walking around with really nice undies :). Cool, another piercing! Haha i don't even let 1% of the emotional craziness that goes on in my head reflect on my blog, I could write forever about that. Mood swings = worse than just feeling consistently depressed, in my book.
ReplyDeleteI get mood swings sometimes, too. I'm still yet learning to deal with my damn emotions.
ReplyDeleteHaha, I know what you mean about those piercings! I have two piercings on each year, and the day I got the second ones I was SO proud of them, but nobody really noticed...some only just noticed it after like 3 years!
I most definitely struggle with extreme highs and lows when it comes to my emotions. I think it has a lot to do with my brain being unable to properly process emotions after masking them for such a long time.
ReplyDeleteSo true - piercing are addicting! I have seven in my head (three on each ear and one in my nose)... I made a commitment to not get any more for fear of scaring the pants off of my mother :P
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I have the same sensation when and after I get a piercing (I have 13 piercings and two tattoos). I say: If you want another one, go for it!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you decided to de-lurk!! I appreciate your comments so much and can't wait to start reading your blog =]
ReplyDelete<3 Laura