People often say that 'Beauty is in the eye of the beholder,' and I say that the most liberating thing about beauty is realizing that you are the beholder.
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This empowers us to find beauty in places where others have not dared to look, including inside ourselves.
-Salma Hayek
....So apparently Salma Hayek is beautiful, a fabulously talented actress and uber wise?! ¡ay Dios mío!
I'm glad you enjoyed yesterday's seven random facts. I'd totally forgotten about "Titanic 2" until recently while cleaning my room. And by cleaning I mean digging through piles of clothes, papers and other randomness. I discovered a sheet of printer paper with PROP LIST scribbled across the top. Apparently we needed to find a blue heart shaped necklace and a bathtub full of rubber ducks before we could start the casting process.
It was funny to look at the list (Rubber ducks?) and reminisce on fun that the friend and I had together. I remember mischievous antics such as using an English/Russian dictionary to prank call a hotel in Moscow and reserve a table for a romantic dinner, complete with champagne and strawberries. The memories saddened me as well. I haven't had fun like that in a long time, and the friend and I lost touch and drifted apart. I got wrapped up in my ED and she eventually moved on. But, while bittersweet, remembering these good times gives me hope that I can have fun like that again.
While the belief that if you are sick people will love and take care of you may be true initially, eventually most people get tired of it and have to move on in order to live their own lives. It's like you're sitting at the base of a hill in a red wagon refusing to get out and pull it, forcing others to drag both the you thrashing and screaming plus wagon. Eventually even those who are most devoted grow frustrated and move on, leaving you to either slide back down the hill or get out and pull yourself up. At least that has been my experience! So now I'm trying my best to scramble up that hill, yanking my little red wagon up behind me.
I'm loving reading your answers to the Essence Game. Through learning what type of underwear/flower/animal you would be I feel as though getting to know you a lot better, weird as that may sound. Who would have thought knowing someone "is" a pair of boys shorts could be so telling? Keep the answers coming!
If I was a ______, I would be....
Chartoon character- Chip from Beauty & the Beast
Fruit- almost ripe persimmon (I've never tried one, so I don't know if this is a good or bad thing. And if I were to eat it now I'd feel like a cannibal... But with myself.)
Vegetable- yellow squash
Cheese- Asiago
Article of clothing- baby doll dress
Shoe- Jelly shoe
i'm still cracking up about titanic 2 and those screenwriters. i love salma hayek!! and volver was sooo good, i have the soundtrack lol! but weird that i don't even remember her being in that movie, i just remember penelope cruz!
ReplyDeleteyay more essence game :)
ReplyDeleteChartoon character- the little mermaid
Fruit- apricot (probably different tomorrow, hah
Vegetable- carrot
Cheese- swiss
Article of clothing- leggings, oh dear
Shoe- snakeskin flat
i really like the red wagon analogy, i've been waiting for someone else to get my but into gear rather than doing it myself as i should.
i always forget that i can be the beholder of beauty, i let too many other things define it for me.
great post love!
happy hump day :)
xoxo
Of COURSE you can still have fun! The only thing stopping you from having fun is fun-police in the back of your midn. BUT THEY DONT EVEN EXIST. So, unarrest yourself, and go prank another poor, unsuspecting Russian man. ;)
ReplyDeleteI can't tell you how much I love this game!
Cartoon Character: The Mad Hatter from Alice, or Crumb from Arrgghh! Real Monsters!
Fruit: Fig! Or a dragon fruit, just because they look cool.
Vegetable:
Cheese: Cheddar
Article of Clothing: A Can-Can dress!
Shoe: Beat up Hi-Tops or a beat up pair of brown pirate boots covered in buckles and straps. Ooooh yeeeeah.
Sometimes, initially, we need help getting pulled up the hill in our red wagon, but sooner or later it will be up to US to pull it, because afterall, it's ours TO pull.
Lovely words, as always, my fellow swashbuckler.
Love always,
Eleanor. xo
Oh, my goodness -- I remember those jellies! They were soooo cool. Remembering that makes me feel very, very old.
ReplyDeleteHow did you prank call Moscow -- didn't that get kind of ... expensive!? ;)
<3 <3
Love the quote from Salma!
ReplyDeleteCartoon character- Sponge Bob. He always seems to have so much fun. And, he lives in a pineapple under the sea...how can you beat that?!
Fruit- Figs. Oh, so lucious.
Vegetable- onion...because I may sting, but I'm really sweet when cooked right
Cheese- something pungent. Takes some getting used to, but once you're hooked, you're HOOKED.
Article of clothing- overalls.
Shoe- boots. Gotta be cool and tough!
RACHAEL! Leave the wagon behind and RUN UP THAT HILL! Okay, I realize the wagon has a significance but you know, I figured it would be easier to reach the top of the hill if you didn't have the wagon.
ReplyDeleteCartoon - Pocahontas.. because she rocks
Fruit - apple
Vegetable - broccoli
Cheese - none, I don't eat cheese! :o
Article of clothing - underwear.. ahaha
Shoe - flats
honestly, i know that people would eventually get tired of me if i didn't get better but it is ok if you are struggling. Ed is a VERY hard thing to overcome but i have no doubt you can do it. you are a beautiful writer :)
ReplyDeletecartoon- jasmine (I LOVE HER)
fruit- strawberries (so pretttty & sweet!)
veggie- carrot haha
cheese- muenster!!
article of clothing- jacket so i could keep people warm!
shoes- flip flops
xoxoxo
shelley
I was so obsessed with Titanic when I was younger that I actually bought a replica of the Heart of the Ocean necklace and wore it around alllllll the time! And my best friend and I had plans to build a "Titanic" hotel. haha.
ReplyDeleteCartoon: Lara Croft
Fruit: Guava
Veg: Artichoke
Cheese: Camembert
Article of Clothing: Leather jacket
Shoes: JIMMY CHOOS ;)!
lotsa love,
Sara
Chartoon character - Velma from Scooby doo :P
ReplyDeleteFruit - pineapple
Vegetable - sweet potato
Article of clothing - flared corduroy trousers, because I am 16 at heart!
Shoe - furry boots
hehe.
I laughed about Titanic 2 - I want to know what you were going to do with the rubber ducks! It's too easy to lose touch with friends. Could you send her a message or something to say hi? Reconnecting is often easier than you might imagine. You definitely have the time and potential to have fun again :) eating disorders are a pain in the ass, but people do recover and get on with their lives. It's great that you realise you have to do it yourself as well. You can always ask people for support and it's good to talk about things, but ultimately your recovery only depends on yourself. It's kind of scary, but also kind of liberating.
First off, I want that rubber ducky!
ReplyDeleteSecond, I love this game...
Cartoon character - belle from B&TB
Fruit - apple
Vegetable - sweet corn
Cheese - gouda
Article of Clothing - mittens
Shoe - pink bunny slippers
Hi, just found your blog through Under the Stars and your words really struck me. I'm feeling the same way right now--like everyone else has gone on with their lives and left me behind while I've been sick. For me remembering good times is such a motivation but it's also saddening to think that I don't have the same chances for fun now. We just have to keep pulling our wagons I guess.
ReplyDeleteI am now officially addicted to this game:
ReplyDeleteChartoon character- In my dreams, Sonic the Hedgehog
Fruit- Pear
Vegetable- Pea
Cheese- Nutritional yeast flakes :P
Article of clothing- Well-worn fleece
Shoe- Trainer
I loved this post as always. I'm not going to stop typing that until it's not true, and I suspect that day may never come. People gave up on/got bored with/couldn't cope with me too, which I suppose is understandable...but I honestly believe that the best friends stick around, no matter what. I am not going to lose faith in you, and I am sure there are many others who won't either. You may not be able to totally recapture the magic of those memories but there is a wide open future out there for the taking to make new ones.
<3
~Jess~
Selma Hayek is one smart cookie :P
ReplyDeleteI agree with Jessica - I think that our struggles can definitely 'weed' out the true friends in our lives. There will always be new beginnings, and new memories to be made :) Don't let ED bring you down!
Chartoon character- Mulan (.. chinese food AND women's rights advocate? Can't go wrong there!)
Fruit- cold crispy apple
Vegetable- None.. I wouldn't be caught dead chewing on my friends and family :P
Cheese- aged white cheddar
Article of clothing- warm hoodie
Shoe- mocassin
xox
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