She don't need no prince....
And neither do you! You are all princesses, but certainly not damsels in distress. Sure dashing princes are nice and all, but you don't need a knight in shining armor. When it comes to the monstrous dragon ED you have inside all the strength, courage and bravery needed to slay that beast yourself.
Last night I was bored and paged through an old journal from when I was in grade school. It was odd to know the writer was me, not a separate person. I found one entry that said, "This morning I started drawing characters on the backs of business cards. For each one I wrote the person's likes and dislikes, and under likes I wrote 'my best friend Rachael.' Since at my school I know no one would write my name under likes." It made me so sad for that young version of myself. I wish I could go give her a hug, take the loneliness away. Tell her that she's worthy of love and happiness. All I know now is that I need to fight for myself, for that little girl. I want to give her the happy ending she deserves.
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I am a princess. All girls are. Even if they live in tiny old attics. Even if they dress in rags, even if they aren't pretty, or smart, or young. They're still princesses. All of us.
-Frances Hodgson Burnett, "A Little Princess"
I know what you mean about looking at things from when you were younger... I kind of wish I could just go back and whack myself over the head to put some sense in there! Not that it would work, but that doesn't stop me wishing...
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Beautiful, touching post. I look at old journal entries too and they make me sad. But we need to remember that those entries are from the past. This is the present. Let's do what we can to make this moment the best that it can possible be :)
ReplyDeleteaww how sweet :-)
ReplyDeleteI guess at the end of the day we cannot always rely on other people to tell us how special we are, we need to learn how to tell ourselves first and foremost.
Sarah x
I love" A little princess", it's one of my favourite childhood books and films :)
ReplyDeleteThis is so true we are all princesses and worthy of love from others AND ourselves. I'm so glad you recognise that and are working towards your goals.
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love that movie, almost as much as i love you! you are a princess sweetie--inside and out. take care of yourself, you deserve it :]
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becca
I loved that film too, it's really sweet. I often feel sad about my younger self too, especially when I think about my sister feeling the same way as I did. She's ten years younger than me and I know that I felt really alone and adult when I was a kid, but she still seems like a child to me, I would be devastated if she was as messed up as I was at that age.
ReplyDeleteI want you to have a happy ending as well <3 you deserve one. We all do.
what a beautiful post- that is the cutest video!! i miss chilhood sometimes. you are amazing :)
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shelley
That picture is INCREDIBLE! So liberating!
ReplyDeleteno need to feel sad for that little girl you once were, she turned in to a strong, intelligent, beautiful young woman! <3
ReplyDeleteThat little girl, that former you, was a princess. And you know what? She grew up. But she's still a princess.
ReplyDeleteAs much as we sometimes wish we could, we can't change the past. The past is in the past, and the future is in the future, but the now is where we are and the now is what matters most. You mightn't be able to comfort the little princess you were, but you can definitely comfort her now.
You don't need a Prince Charming or Knight In Shining Armor to make you feel worthy. You are more than capable of beating that dragon and making your way down the stairway you've been trapped in. No Prince need guide you down those stairs; no prince need fight that dragon off for you!
You have all the strength you need, and you can make the little princess you were, proud of the princess you are now.
All my love,
Eleanor. xo
P.S. Who needs a Prince when you have that wicked cool castle ALL to yourself? ;)
I love that quote. You definitely deserve love and happiness (: -Kylee
ReplyDeleteWhenever I think about my childhood and the bitter, lonely girl that I use to be.. I wish I could do the same thing. Give her a hug and tell her that she IS loved, she IS beautiful and she IS wanted. Then again.. that would be tampering with the past..
ReplyDeleteI hope that every single one of us gets our happy ending. We sure as hell deserve it! <3
I havent watched the video by Skylar who will be 3 in a few weeks tells me all the time, "Mommy, a Princess is Always Prepared." Clearly, she's thinkin ahead and aint waitin for no prince to rescue her. At 2 yrs old. You go girl :)
ReplyDeleteI feel the exact same way... going through this recovery process now has opened my eyes to so much that I hadn't even realized in my past. Low self-esteem can build and build when we are unaware, until one day we get a wake up call.
ReplyDeleteThe best thing we can do is stand up and take back what is rightfully ours - our confidence :) You are wonderful, Rachael, and don't ever forget it! :P
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amen girl!! i like to think we are God's princesses :) it says in psalm that "women, the King is ENTHRALLED by your beauty" .. thats amazing!
ReplyDeleteaww what a great post! looking back at the past is hard sometimes but it really reminds me how much stronger and smarter we are now. and that video was SO adorable & i love a little princess! have an amazing tuesday night xoxo soph
ReplyDeleteLovely post, Rachael. I go through my old journals as well, and I think the thing that bothers me the most is how long I've been saying the same things... having the same problems... but I finally feel like I'm getting past them.
ReplyDeleteYou're amazing, Rachael, and you do deserve all the love and happiness. I'm sure you'll find the happy ending for your princess :)
Love this post, my dear! Show them that not all princesses are damsels in distress. Strut your inner beauty and power!
ReplyDeleteI LOVE that movie! It was my favourite growing up! Such a true quote ;)
ReplyDeletei loved this post--it's so bright and sends such a beautiful message. Thank you :)
ReplyDeletehope youre doing well darling, thinking of you <3